End of another year:]

Well it's the end of another school year and here the summer comes. It's just around the corner:) This summer is going to be the best ever..I'm pretty sure..but I won't know till it's over it it is or not. I have a baby sitting job; so i will have money and I have the most amazing boyfriend in the world, Pedro Perez. We have been seeing each other for 3 months on the 21st of May:) I really really really like him a lot; like so much that I love him to death with all my heart and soul. I don't think he really realizes that because he says he is always thinking about weather or not I love him and how much I do love him and how long this will last and everything. Well what I say about that is that everyone has their doubts. I just believe that he really does love me like he says and I know he loves me with all his heart or else he wouldn't do the things he does for me. He buys me whatever I want if he has the money for it and he will try even if he doesn't have the money. He comes to see me as much as he can. I just love him so so so much! :D he makes me the happiest girl on earth. I really hope that what we have lasts forever. I have given so much up for him but I don't care because I love him enough to do what I have to just so I can keep him with me. I just wish he knew how much I really do care for him.
Well anyway to get back to the end of the year business...This is the end of my junior year of high school and I will be a senior next year:) yea baby!!!! I can't wait...I am gonna take 4 college classes: A&P, College Algebra, College History, and College Government. I bet it's gonna be hard but I am gonna do the best I can to pass and go all the way. Today is the 17th of May and we only have this week and 3 days of next week left of school. It's just around the corner and I can't wait:)
Lets finish off on how my relationship is going with Petey, Pedro Perez. It is pretty dang good besides we have been fighting here lately because of my mistakes that I should have never done. I am really sorry for everything that I have done that has upset him. I really don't mean to make him upset or anything. I don't want him upset, I love him to much to see him upset. I just hope he realizes how much I care and love him. He means the world to me and I need to find a way to show him that. I just don't know how. I mean I have been kissing him and hugging him and everything. I just want him to know that I do love him with all my heart and I want to be with him for as long as possible. I just want him happy even if that means I'm not..that's how much I love him. I just hope he finds out that I do love him so so so much!!!! I Love You Pedro Perez With All My Heart & Soul!!!!

Goodbye Jesse!

Goodbye Jesse i'm sorry for ever hurting you and putting you through this. I really am and i do love you I really do don't think I dont but i just think for now that we should just be friends and not be in a relationship. i want you to get on your feet first and get a job and get a car and your own house and just be happy and find happiness by yourself. Because i wont always be there for you when you're down or when you need me most. I do care for you but I just cant do this no more and plus I wanna give Andy a second chance and see how well he does just please if you love me you will understand and be happy for me and i will always love you Jesse and if you need someone to talk to I will be here for you forever and always Jesse. Just please forgive me for hurting you I really do love you so much and wanna be with you but I have to give Andy a second chance just like i did you. And to explain why I have been so rude is because I'm trying to get you from being upset and get over me because I dont want you upset over me and unhappy I want you to be happy but I know you wanna be with me so you can be happy but i'm being mean and rude and everything because i'm trying to push you away i'm trying to get you to not want me and to know that you can be happy without me and you will always have me to talk to I swear on my life that you will and i swear that i do love you but its just not a good time to get back to together right now but maybe later on we can. Please Jesse just forgive me PLEASE.

Jesse!!!!

Jesse I love you so much!
I can't ever get you out of my head,
It's crazy how you don't realize how much you love someone until you lose that someone,
I really do love Jesse.
He is my everything,
And all I ever wanted,
He is my all and all,
I love him so so much.
He means the world to me,
And I don't care what anyone says about us,
Or anything because if you love someone you will try to be with them no matter what,
And If you love someone and that someone loves you then you will never lose them.
I will never leave him no matter what because why leave someone you love,
For the someone that you may or may not like,
When they will most likely leave you for the one they love,
And you will just be screwed in the end.
But I really do love him very much :-)

For those of you that don't know yet!

:D Well I have a boyfriend and his name is Jesse Holt! I love him. We have been together for 2 months today (10/15/09). I have known him sense Elementary school and I'm a Junior in High School right now. So yea that's a long time to know someone then finally start to date. :D I really do love him. He means so much to me. Yes, we have gotten into a fight before over pretty much the same stuff as before but it's like really my fault not his. I get worked up over a lot of things that I probably shouldn't. Like our last fight was over really nothing besides whether we should break up or not because we never get to see each other. I kept asking him whether he wanted me to break up or what and he kept saying idk idk and it was gettin on my nerves so yea of course I yelled at him for it and yea i told him not to call or text me until he knew the answer and he finally texted me like 10 hours later and he said hey babe i said do you have an answer he said no i just missed talking to you all day and i said well i need an answer so i don't have to sit here and worry whether you're goin to break up with me or not and just fall more in love then get hurt more and yea. He finally told me he wasn't gonna break up with me like a couple hours after that and that he loved me and he wanted to be with me the rest of his life. And like we have been fighting about me now because I am a month late for my period and that's scary but OMG!!! I just found out I started just a little bit ago its crazy cause I havent had sex in 3 months and i had my period then I missed it last month and now I'm on it again. It's so crazy!! :D but i'm so happy that i finally started. I'm not having sex till I am actually really ready. I am trying to wait till I turn 18 which is on December 7, 2010.

My Sign

S • A • G • I • T • T • A • R • I • U • S : The Sexy One

Spontaneous, Freak in Bed, Great when found, Loves being in long relationships, The one, So much love to give, Not one to mess with, Very kind, Silly, fun and sweet, Most caring person you will ever meet, Not the kind of person you wanna mess with you. Pretty, Very romantic, Nice to everyone They meet, Their Love is one of a kind, Silly, fun and sweet, Most caring person you will ever meet, Not the kind of person you wanna mess with.

WELCOME TO THE JUNGLE

For everyone going to high school
Here's my advice


1. You're going to meet a ton of new people.
And chances are, so will that boy. So don't
spend your whole year chasing after him,
because if you don't have him now, you never will.

2. Homework is extreamly important.Unlike
in middle school, you have important
deadlines you need to meet. Don't put
it off to the end, or you'll be sorry.

3. Remember in middle school how you
were labeled? Imagine that, only twice
as bad. The second you enter those
doors, you'll probably be judged. It's up
to you pick how you want to be labeled.

4. You're a freshman. The worst thing
you could possibly do now, is break the
trust of your parents. They're the key to
your future.

5. Lastly, people will change. Your best
friend could quite possibly become the
person you resent the most. High school
changes people. Don't let it effect you.

All I've got left to say is...
WELCOME TO THE JUNGLE

Summer Once Again

summer is getting closer with each passing day.
of course i'm happy. yet at the same time, i am
going to miss this. believe it or not, but i'll miss
dragging myself out of bed at six just to see
those people i love. i'll miss getting in trouble in
class for talking or passing notes. i'll miss seeing
my friends every day. sure we'll see each other
throughtout the summer. it'll just be a whole lot
different. and after these three short months,
highschool will be starting. a fresh opportunity
to get things right. i'm not going to lie, i'm kind of
terrified. excited, yes, but scared. scared of what
this new year will hold. scared of all the pressure
that will surely come. scared of being on my own.
i ' m s c a r e d o f f i n a l l y g r o w i n g u p .