For those of you that don't know yet!

:D Well I have a boyfriend and his name is Jesse Holt! I love him. We have been together for 2 months today (10/15/09). I have known him sense Elementary school and I'm a Junior in High School right now. So yea that's a long time to know someone then finally start to date. :D I really do love him. He means so much to me. Yes, we have gotten into a fight before over pretty much the same stuff as before but it's like really my fault not his. I get worked up over a lot of things that I probably shouldn't. Like our last fight was over really nothing besides whether we should break up or not because we never get to see each other. I kept asking him whether he wanted me to break up or what and he kept saying idk idk and it was gettin on my nerves so yea of course I yelled at him for it and yea i told him not to call or text me until he knew the answer and he finally texted me like 10 hours later and he said hey babe i said do you have an answer he said no i just missed talking to you all day and i said well i need an answer so i don't have to sit here and worry whether you're goin to break up with me or not and just fall more in love then get hurt more and yea. He finally told me he wasn't gonna break up with me like a couple hours after that and that he loved me and he wanted to be with me the rest of his life. And like we have been fighting about me now because I am a month late for my period and that's scary but OMG!!! I just found out I started just a little bit ago its crazy cause I havent had sex in 3 months and i had my period then I missed it last month and now I'm on it again. It's so crazy!! :D but i'm so happy that i finally started. I'm not having sex till I am actually really ready. I am trying to wait till I turn 18 which is on December 7, 2010.

My Sign

S • A • G • I • T • T • A • R • I • U • S : The Sexy One

Spontaneous, Freak in Bed, Great when found, Loves being in long relationships, The one, So much love to give, Not one to mess with, Very kind, Silly, fun and sweet, Most caring person you will ever meet, Not the kind of person you wanna mess with you. Pretty, Very romantic, Nice to everyone They meet, Their Love is one of a kind, Silly, fun and sweet, Most caring person you will ever meet, Not the kind of person you wanna mess with.

WELCOME TO THE JUNGLE

For everyone going to high school
Here's my advice


1. You're going to meet a ton of new people.
And chances are, so will that boy. So don't
spend your whole year chasing after him,
because if you don't have him now, you never will.

2. Homework is extreamly important.Unlike
in middle school, you have important
deadlines you need to meet. Don't put
it off to the end, or you'll be sorry.

3. Remember in middle school how you
were labeled? Imagine that, only twice
as bad. The second you enter those
doors, you'll probably be judged. It's up
to you pick how you want to be labeled.

4. You're a freshman. The worst thing
you could possibly do now, is break the
trust of your parents. They're the key to
your future.

5. Lastly, people will change. Your best
friend could quite possibly become the
person you resent the most. High school
changes people. Don't let it effect you.

All I've got left to say is...
WELCOME TO THE JUNGLE

Summer Once Again

summer is getting closer with each passing day.
of course i'm happy. yet at the same time, i am
going to miss this. believe it or not, but i'll miss
dragging myself out of bed at six just to see
those people i love. i'll miss getting in trouble in
class for talking or passing notes. i'll miss seeing
my friends every day. sure we'll see each other
throughtout the summer. it'll just be a whole lot
different. and after these three short months,
highschool will be starting. a fresh opportunity
to get things right. i'm not going to lie, i'm kind of
terrified. excited, yes, but scared. scared of what
this new year will hold. scared of all the pressure
that will surely come. scared of being on my own.
i ' m s c a r e d o f f i n a l l y g r o w i n g u p .

I will Always Remember '~'

I remember when we kissed <3
I still feel it on my lips
The time that you danced with me
With no music playing
I remember the simple things
I remember til I cry
But the one thing I wish I'd forget
The memory I wanna forget
Is Goodbye

Happy Once Again

:] I am so so so so so so HAPPY right now :] I can't stop smiling OMG I really hope he is for reals and not messing with my head just to get into my pants OMG I really want to date him and be in a relationship with him and keep him to myself where nobody else can have him...only me and nobody else...I really really like him a lot...now right when I first met him I didn't think that I would like him like this but now I do and he is so nice and funny and always makes me smile and laugh and he makes me happy when I'm sad :] he turns my frown upside down...He is like one of my best friends but I want to be more then just friends I want to be boyfriend/girlfriend. He says he feels the same about me but idk Na he is almost 19 he graduated last year (2008) and my mom kind of likes him I think and she doesn't really approve of him because he is going to be leaving for Iraq here pretty soon.....(I'm going to cry :'( I am going to miss him so much he always knows what to say all the time...here are some examples: "I would really like to have a relationship with you... but I couldn't do that to you it wouldn't b right of me.... but i really want to b selfish and take u as mine but i can't.... so i have to leave the choice to you.... you know I'll b gone, but after i get back i will have a long stabilization where i can't b deployed...." another one is "I understand that and I would never ask u to go behind her back and start a relationship with out her consent....." another one is "you should do what you feel is right, and follow your heart and what is right to you and your heart and what is right to yourself and ya mom......" He is so so so sweet any girl would be luck y to have him!!!! I just wish my mom would give me the consent to have him as a boyfriend. I really do like him and have feelings for him and hope she will realize that...I plan to talk to her about him and me getting into a relationship and then I have to try to get her to say yes so I feel better about dating him...we aren't dating yet but he did ask me if he could claim me as his and he could get jealous and defensive if anyone else touches me and I said yes so he said that I am officially his and nobodyelse's ha ha. He is so sweet though...I just want my mom to see him like I do so she will realize that he isn't like my ex-boyfriend that he is really nice and he respects girls and what they have to say and especially me he doesn't make me do anything I don't want to do and says he never will...I believe him. Hopefully I am making the right choice by picking him out of the group of guys that like me I really really really like him a lot and hope he feels exactly the same about me and doesn't just care about sex I really hope he mainly just wants to hang out and have fun and hug and things like that and not be as intimate as we could (sex). And I wore his ring and sweater today and my ex looked at me like why is she wearing his sweater and ring and he looked like he got upset about it :] all I have to say is that's what he gets for leaving me for that "girl" He is getting pay back now he is feeling what I felt when he left me he is now realizing that I don't care about him anymore and I'm not going to get back with him so he now knows that I'm not someone to fall back on like he was probably planning on doing if she broke up with him or if something happened to them...but enough about him...lets get back to Travis!!!! :D He is so sweet like I have already said his parents are nice too and they approve of me they know I am only 16 and going to be 17 on December 7th but they still approve they said for him to get his orange jumpsuit ready ha ha I laughed at that but we haven't done any thing so there is no worries there. :D and he said for me to look up this song called Somebody Like You by Keith Urban (everyone should look it up and listen to it) he said it was a song from him to me... :D I really like it and it is sweet!!!! But now I have to go it is getting late and I need some sleep so whenever I have time and I have more to say I will let y'all know more...but for now..... That's All Folks!!!! :D

SEX

[Intro:]
Hey yo you,
You see most cats would take adavantage of you right now
But I aint gon do that, you heard
Imma give you the game, right
Imma give it to you because
I dont want somebody to give my little girl the game
So she could find her s.e.x.

[Verse 1:]
Life's a trip
Heard you just turn 17 and finally got some hips
Hustlers on the block go crazy when you lick your lips
But they just want relations, they don't want relationships
(Welcome to the real world)
It ain't the same
Fellas old enough to be your daddy know your name
Everybody's talkin' bout how much that girl dun changed
Cant quite put your finger on it but you feel it's strange
Like's it's fire in your veins

[Chorus:]
Girl it's just your s.e.x.
Momma's secret
And daddy gon' go crazy when he finds out that his baby's found her
S.e.x., take a deep breath
And think before you let it go

[Verse 2:]
The block is packed
Baby got an attitude and proud to holla back
Momma's giving advice but she ain't tryna hear that
Not because its wrong, just her delivery is wack
(Shay, get your butt in this house, if I see you with another boy, I swear..)
Life is rough
You say that your not ready for sex but you're in love
He says if you really loved him, you would give it up
Momma says that's just a lie guys use to get you're stuff
Which one will you trust?

[Chorus:]
Girl it's just your s.e.x.
Momma's secret
And daddy gon' go crazy when he finds out that his baby's found her
S.e.x., take a deep breath
And think before you let it go

[Verse 3:]
Hey yo Lyfe,
She might take it better coming from a woman (get 'em girl)
See, he'll tell you all kind of things to get in your pants, yeah
Baby, it's a fact that once it's gone, you'll never get it back (never get it back)
Hold on to your innocence
Use your common sense (your worth waiting for)
Be strong
Honey, don't give in, blessings come with patience
Till we meet again, I'm praying for you

[Chorus:]
Girl it's just your s.e.x.
Momma's secret
And daddy gon go crazy when he finds out that his baby's found her
S.e.x., take a deep breath
And think before you let it go

[Repeat Chorus]
[Outro]

LISTEN TO THE LYRICS CAREFULLY! THEY TELL THE TRUTH AND NOTHING BUT THE TRUTH. I RECOMMEND THIS SONG TO ANYONE AND EVERYONE. IT MAY BE OLD BUT IT IS STILL TRUE AND EVERYONE SHOULD FOLLOW BY IT. AND FOR ALL YOU GUYS OUT THERE...YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO THIS AND ACTUALLY GIVE A CRAP ABOUT A GIRL AND NOT JUST WANT IN HER PANTS. AND FOR ALL YOU GUYS THAT DO GIVE A CRAP ABOUT GIRLS AND DON'T WANT TO JUST GET IN HER PANTS, THAT YOU WANT TO BE ABLE TO BE AROUND HER JUST TO SEE HER FACE; JUST TO SEE HER SMILE; JUST TO HEAR HER LAUGH; JUST TO BE AROUND HER; TO HOLD HER CLOSE TO YOUR HEART; THEN YOU ARE THE BEST GUY AROUND! AND WE APPRECIATE THAT YOU ARE THAT WAY BECAUSE THERE ISN'T THAT MANY OF YOU GUYS OUT THERE IN THE WORLD AND EVERY GIRL NEEDS ONE. TEACH YOUR KNOWINGS TO THE GUYS AND TELL THEM HOW YOU FEEL AND LET THEM KNOW IT IS ALWAYS BETTER TO THINK OF THE PERSONALITY AND NOT LOOKS AND THAT IT IS GREAT TO NOT JUST WANT TO GET IN THE GIRLS PANTS THAT IT IS A GREAT THING TO JUST WANT TO SEE THEM AND BE ABLE TO TALK TO THEM AND TO HOLD THEM AND LOVE THEM. YOU CAN SHOW AFFECTION AND LOVE IN OTHER WAYS THEN JUST SEX!

GIRLS KEEP YOUR INNOCENCE FOR AS LONG AS POSSIBLE AND WAIT FOR THE *RIGHT ONE* AND MAKE SURE HE IS THE *RIGHT ONE* BECAUSE YOUR VIRGINITY IS THE ONE THING THAT IS YOURS AND NOBODY ELSE'S IT IS ONLY YOURS IT ONLY BELONGS TO YOU IT IS YOUR GIFT. AND ONCE YOU HAVE SEX YOU HAVE GIVEN YOUR VIRGINITY TO THAT GUY YOU HAVE SHARED IT WITH HIM AND YOU CAN'T GIVE IT TO NOBODY ELSE BUT HIM CAUSE YOU NO LONGER HAVE IT TO YOURSELF ANYMORE YOU HAVE GIVEN IT AWAY AND SOMETIMES YOU MAY THINK THE GUY IS *THE ONE* BUT HE TURNS OUT TO BE A JERK SO IT IS BEST TO WAIT FOR MARRIAGE TO KNOW THAT HE LOVES YOU UNCONDITIONALLY AND THAT IT DOESN'T MATTER IF YOU HAVE SEX OR NOT THAT HE WILL LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT!

GIRLS PLEASE JUST LISTEN TO THE SONG AND READ THE LYRICS AND LISTEN TO WHAT I SAID! AND GUYS JUST REMEMBER THAT GIRLS WANT TO LOVE NOT MAKE LOVE! GIRLS WANT TO WAIT TILL THEY ARE ABSOLUTELY READY AND MAKE SURE IT IS THE RIGHT GUY AND THAT HE WILL STAY WITH HER THROUGH THICK AND THIN, THROUGH SICKNESS AND HEALTH!